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The Vow

Written - May 14, 2017 Beginning something is always the hardest part or so i thought. Endings are always the hardest part. How do you tell yourself it's time to walk away? How do you learn how to walk away? How do you unlove someone? How do you become peaceful with yourself? How do you get tired and have  the guts to give up? How do you drain yourself? How do you become  happy? How do you walk away from good memories? How do you  forget? You were the greatest part of a difficult life. The brightest star in my dark nights. The colorful rainbow in my cloudy rainy days. And you were the remedy in my thoughts full of pain. How do you walk away from amazing future dreams? How do you get tired  and give up easily? Why is breaking up the answer when holding on can be an option? How can you be so decisive of ending when from day 1 you never tried to decide at all. I wanted to scream and fucking kill myself. I want to tire myself so much, I'll be heartless, careless and ...

Hi, I'm No One (2013)

Revised at 2015 // COPYRIGHT 2013 // A work made by Andrea Altamirano, CANNOT BE REPRODUCED WITHOUT PERMISSION Andi. Extra & Ordinary. Meaning, I was always just an extra to everyone’s life and i was never unique, just an ordinary lady trying to exist. I’m not living, I’m just existing. I call myself a faded spirit. I declare myself as a risk taker. I am obsessed with vintage stuffs and city lights and great food. And one day I want to share my obsessions with my “the one.” I’m hopeless romantic & silly & clingy & hot headed. I like faded photos because I think they represent that everything in life slowly fades too.  For my whole existence, I believed that I am just a mistake. I grew up being independent. Mature most of the times yet at times I want to be immature too, I also want to be taken care of.  I have a great life. A loving family, true friends and good health. Yet sometimes, i feel like something’s incomplete. This essay is stupid ...